Friday, April 30th, 2004

the world is a vampire…

well… it’s 2:15am, i feel like crap and cannot sleep. i really need to goto work on friday becouse i missed thursday and i have alot of work backing up…sigh.

alot of things are changing at work… nuff said.

chelsea is doing better and better. i’m happy to see her progress. i’ve told her how i feel about her, i respect her desisions and what she has told me. even though it upsets me that she’s lying to herself, i understand her motivations and cannot stand up to them. i do not have enough strength to do that for myself.

i leave you all this morning to think about this…

in this world, this universe, this place we all live… there are some things we can understand, some things we know, and somethings we can hope for. out of those things, less than 1% of it we can control. i often ask how things work. but lately i’ve realized it’s not how that we should ask, but rather why. by asking how, your trying to tell the future. by asking why, you are understanding the past and can then better prepare yourself for the future.

to the graduating class of 2004. i’m happy to tell you that you should jump in, the water is fine. the pool is so deep you cannot see the bottom but so dark you would not want too. stay out of the deep end, there is an under current there. if your out too far, always remember to call for help.

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Wednesday, April 28th, 2004

sigh..

so much crap going on. i’m tired of it all… tired of it…

and you know what agrivates me most about it… she f’n lead me on… she’s been using me…

if she hasnt… i’m really confused…and you know what pisses me off…she will not ever know this…..

sigh… i’m going to bed.

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Thursday, April 22nd, 2004

what a long week…

so much going on. so much to think about. so much i want to do and yet, i’m holding myself back becouse i do not want to get hurt or hurt anyone…

sigh…

i’m off to pretend like i’m sleeping…for the 5th night in a row.

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Wednesday, April 21st, 2004

look, a butterfly…

there are some really special people in this world.

there are so many good things and bad things going on i’m overloaded. dont know what to type here, give me some time to sort things out on my own and i’ll be back.

i uhhh… uhmmm… thanks for being here, for taking the time to view this site…if you have… uhh..reply to it, with just… giberish or randomness… i’ll understand, i hope you do too.

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Tuesday, April 20th, 2004

i feel like snot…

yea, so that raps it up.

lan party friday!

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