Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
tonight, after talking to katie online, i met with a small possy in ft worth and in a couple of vehicles we rolled up to the walmart in n. irving for me to meet her to get my pen drive back. katie handed me my pen drive and said good bye. the driver of the vehicle she was in then shifted into drive and as they began rolling she said i never want to speak to you again. i politly said ok, good bye.
tonight i notice that she sent me a message. the following is unedited.
Katie says:
i want you to understand that our lives are going seperate ways and the things in the past i can forgive but i dont want anything to do with you cuz i am ready to move on and i believe you believe the same. as for me reading your last entry in your live journal those old friends have a reason for being old friends and things dont need to be patched up so dont work to hard on those relationships
my public reply to katie… i’m happy your at this point in your life. it’s something you’ve needed for sometime. i wish you the best. you know how to get in touch with me if you ever need anything at all.
in my last journal entry i was speaking of some friends i had at my previous job. but more on that later.
Monday, December 27th, 2004
i got alot acomplished today from a good shave to getting my toll tag done. locked my keys in my truck for a couple hours today at some point… and managed to blow up the power supply in my computer. i’m going to take care of it tommorow… rue came over for a bit tonight and we hung out. she helped me diagnose a bad computer power cord..heh… i was off work today and tommorow then i’ll be pulling 10 hour days again starting wednesday…. o boy it’s going to be some late nights. speaking of which, i forgot to tell katie i was off today and tommorow. i’ll be out all day anyways so its not like there’d be any time for her and i to get together.
i’ve been thinking alot about the past lately. and it wasnt until the lady who cut my hair earlier said 2004 passed us fast that i realised it really has. my stress and blah levels are catching up to me quick. one of these days i’ll end up telling my job to F#() off which is not going to be good for me. heh… once Todd gets back it’ll help though. i owe appologies to alot of people and i need to take teh time to catch up to some old friends i’ve left. i made it to teh cemetery today and i ended up leaving without getting out of my truck because they had just started a funeral across the street from my dad’s gravesite and i did not want to disturb them. they had another site setup. that would make for a tough christmas time… yea… christmas was blah for me. you’ll notice below that i did not post much because i was working so much but also because my christmas was just another day this year. my whole family got together which was really cool but there’s a part missing and it showed… we stick together… because like my sister said the other night, we have too.
i’ve got alot to do tommorow but i’m going to try to give a few people a call to say hi. i owe it too them as much as myself.
On a warm summer’s evenin’, on a train bound for nowhere,
I met up with the gambler; we were both too tired to sleep.
So we took turns a starin’ out the window at the darkness,
‘Til boredom overtook us, and he began to speak.
He said: “Son, I’ve made a life out of readin’ people’s faces,
“And knowin’ what their cards were by the way they held their eyes.
“So if you don’t mind my sayin’, I can see you’re out of aces.
“For a taste of your whiskey, I’ll give you some advice.”
So I handed him my bottle and he drank down my last swallow.
Then he bummed a cigarette and asked me for a light.
And the night got deathly quiet, his face lost all expression.
He said: “If you’re gonna play the game, boy, you gotta learn to play it right.
“You got to know when to hold ‘em; know when to fold ‘em,
“Know when to walk away; know when to run.
“You never count your money when you’re sittin’ at the table.
“There’ll be time enough for countin’ when the dealin’s done.
“Now ev’ry gambler knows the secret to survivin’.
“Is knowin’ what to throw away, knowing what to keep.
“‘Cos ev’ry hand’s a winner and ev’ry hand’s a loser,
“And the best you can hope for is to die in your sleep.”
So when he’d finished speakin’, he turned back toward the window:
Crushed out his cigarette and faded off to sleep.
And somewhere in the darkness the gambler, he broke even.
But in his final words I found an ace that I could keep.
“You got to know when to hold ‘em; know when to fold ‘em,
“Know when to walk away; know when to run.
“You never count your money when you’re sittin’ at the table.
“There’ll be time enough for countin’ when the dealin’s done.
“You got to know when to hold ‘em; know when to fold ‘em,
“Know when to walk away; know when to run.
“You never count your money when you’re sittin’ at the table.
“There’ll be time enough for countin’ when the dealin’s done.
You got to know when to hold ‘em; know when to fold ‘em,
“Know when to walk away; know when to run.
“You never count your money when you’re sittin’ at the table.
“There’ll be time enough for countin’ when the dealin’s done.
funny how i have not heard that song in years but
i can still sing it without the lyrics.
Friday, December 24th, 2004
Walking alone beneath the lights of that miracle mile,
he n Mary making her way into the night,
you can here the cries from the carnival rides, the pin ball bells, ski ball slides,
watching the summer sun fall out of sight,
there’s a warm wind coming in from off of the ocean
making its way past the hotel walls to fill the streets,
Mary is holding both of her shoes in her hands,
said she likes to feel the sand beneath her feet
And in the morning I’m leaving n making my way back to Cleveland so tonight I hope,
I would do just fine,
and I don’t see how you could ever be,
anything but mine
There’s a local band playing,
at the sea side pavilion and I got just enough cash to get us in
and as we are dancing Mary’s wrapping her arms around me,
and I can feel the sting on summer on my skin,
in the mist of the music I tell her I love her,
we both laugh cause we know it isn’t true
ahh, but Mary there is a summer drawing to an end tonight there’s so much I’m longing to do to you
And in the morning I’m leaving n making my way back to Cleveland so tonight I hope,
I would do just fine,
and I don’t see how you could ever be,
anything but mine
Ooooooooo..
And in the morning I’m leaving n making my way back to Cleveland so tonight I hope,
I would do just fine,
and I don’t see how you could ever be,
anything but mine
Mary I don’t see how you could ever be anything but mine
Ooooooooooo…ooooooooooooooo…
…And in the morning I’m leaving n making my way back to Cleveland so tonight I hope,
I would do just fine,
and I don’t see how you could ever be,
anything but mine
Tuesday, December 21st, 2004
Last year, my friend upgraded his GirlFriend3.1 to GirlFriendPlus1.0
(marketing name: Fiancee1.0).
Recently he upgraded Fiancee1.0 to Wife1.0 and it’s a memory hogger, has taken all his space; and Wife1.0 must be running before he can do anything.
Although he didn’t ask for them, Wife1.0 came with Plug-Ins such as MotherInLaw and BrotherInLaw.
Some features I’d like to see in the upcoming GirlFriend4.0.
* A “Don’t remind me again” button
* Minimize button
* Shutdown feature - An install shield feature so that Girlfriend 4.0 can be completely uninstalled if so desired (so you don’t lose cache and other objects)
I tried running Girlfriend 2.0 with Girlfriend 1.0 still installed, they tried using the same I/O port and conflicted. Then I tried to uninstall Girlfriend 1.0 but it didn’t have an uninstall program. I tried to uninstall it by hand, but it put files in my system directory.
Another thing that sucks — in all versions of Girlfriend that I’ve used is that it is totally “object oriented” and only supports hardware with gold plated contacts.
***** BUG WARNING ********
Wife 1.0 has an undocumented bug. If you try to install Mistress 1.1 before uninstalling Wife 1.0, Wife 1.0 will delete MSMoney files before doing the uninstall itself. Then Mistress 1.1 will refuse to install, claiming insufficient resources.
Monday, December 20th, 2004
just worked another 12 and a half hour day. looks like there are alot more ahead of me. perhaps even xmas eve. :( sigh. o well.
tommorow i need to go get tires and pick up my moms present, which i’ll prob do at lunch and maybe i can use teh tires as a good reason to actaually get off at a decent hour. hmmm…
thats all for now.
