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Sunday, July 31st, 2005

it’s official

i’m going to austrailia. who’s with me?

http://www.charter.net/news/read.php?id=12085626&ps=1020&lang=en

Friday, July 29th, 2005

Song For Dad - Keith Urban

Lately I’ve been noticing
I say the same things he used to say
And I even find myself acting the very same way
I tap my fingers on the table
To the rhythm in my soul
And I jingle the car keys
When I’m ready to go
When I look in the mirror
He’s right there in my eyes
Starin’ back at me and I realize

The older I get
The more I can see
How much he loved my mother and my brother and me
And he did the best that he could
And I only hope when I have my own family
That everyday I see
A little more of my father in me

There were times I thought he was bein’
Just a little bit hard on me
But now I understand he was makin’ me
Become the man he knew that I could be
In everything he ever did
He always did with love
And I’m proud today to say I’m his son
When somebody says I hope I get to meet your dad
I just smile and say you already have

The older I get
The more I can see
How much he loved my mother and my brother and me
And he did the best that he could
And I only hope when I have my own family
That everyday I see
A little more of my father in me

He’s in my eyes
My heart, my soul
My hands, my pride
And when I feel alone

And I think I can’t go on
I hear him sayin’ “Son you’ll be alright”
Everything’s gonna be alright”
Yes it is

The older I get
The more I can see
That he loved my mother and my brother and me
And he did the best that he could
And I only hope when I have my own family
That everyday I see
Oh I hope I see
I hope everyday I see
A little more of my father in me

A little more of my father in me
I hope everyday I see in me
In me
In me
I hope everyday I see

A little more of my father in me

Wednesday, July 27th, 2005

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Tuesday, July 26th, 2005

i’m back in dfw.

i came home because i felt like the company did not care too much about me. as it is, my money is tight and i was going to be put in the hole my 3rd week down there and the company did not care alot about helping me, other than “buying a few meals.” i’m also very much of a people person. i need to be around people to keep me going, weather it’s teh guys or my family. i think i made the right desision to come home and my entire family supported the idea when we looked at my expenses. if i was established in my own apartment here and/or had a few extra thousand dollars, this would have been a heck of a deal. but as it stands, to get myself into an apt there was going to cost me alot more than a monthly payment, because i’ve never rented or had utilities before. they all wanted deposits before they could let me use their service. if i had an apt here, i’d have that on my credit and it would have been much cheaper there, not too mention, it’d all be tax free. as it was, i was not getting anything tax free as a buisness expenses because i did not own a house here.

i now know what i need to do to take an offer like this. thats my new goal. i’m a changed person.

Monday, July 25th, 2005

so here i am

i’m in san antonio. right at 4 hours to get here. i went to the hotel first (4pm-ish). they told me my room would not be ready until 5:20-ish. no big deal, i went to the tek systems office to sign my papers and get my information for my job. got back to the hotel at 5:15 and the room was ready. i drug all of my stuff up here including my desktop and got everything set down and went to find dinner cuz i have not eaten all day.

i got sandwich stuff some pb&j stuff and two cans of progesso soup (the kind you dont need a can opener for) and then found 2 microwave safe dishes for $.23 each. also, the hotel does not have wireless inet, so i had to buy a 14ft patch cable for $12… sigh… i have so many of them at home.

so here i am. soup is done but too hot too eat. i’m so lonely i’m ready to come home. i’m much too far out of my element here. i’m a people person. i have to have company… i dont know if this is going to work… but i know i need to give it time.