Tuesday, February 27th, 2007
a grey beard and a wet blanket
here we are, coming up on march 1st already. it was halloween just yesterday, and before that 4th of july. it’s funny how the calendar sneaks up on you when your busy being distracted by the clock.
so i’m preparing to move out into my own apartment in march. i’ve got a few apartments in mind, it’s a matter of talking to the people and having the money for my deposit. i’m not scared, not really even nervous; i would say i’m more apprehensive about what is to come.
i’ve been putting in a lot of hours at work recently; they pushed our website redesign go live date back again. i dont know if we’re deferring the pain from the lack of testing we’ve been able to do, or deferring the pain of the project that wont die. either way, with this delay comes more work.
mandy and i have been talking about our future together a lot lately. for once i’m to a place in my life where i can see my future coming together. so where i say when i say i’m not scared of moving out onto my own, i’m really not. i really know that this is just another step in the direction of where i want to go in the long run. it’s just another foot print in the sand that will lead me home if i ever need to back up.
recently i’ve found myself burned out on, well, almost everything. and burned out is probably not even a good term for it. it’s more like a sick case of the blahs. sometimes i realise how alone we really are in this world and no matter how much you believe God and all of your people will have your back, it’s still a big place that’s easy to get lost in if you dont keep the blinders on your horse and a pretty lady at your side.
anyways, keep your socks on and don’t tell anyone where you hide your car keys from yourself.
